....following up on the 'Elevens'...

                 This is something that I would like to add to the number 'Eleven', that has quite a impact, not just on my life and birthday, but for other relative circumstances. I found a card that I've had for some years now, and would like to share what it explains about
that particular number in numerology. 

                         If born on the Eleventh: Inspiration


      You have the incredible ability to help others connect with their sense of wonder and zest for life. Your passion for living and personal vitality inspires everyone to open to their creativity.  Within you dwells a rushing river of energy waiting to be tapped and harnessed. You are a dynamo of creativity! A powerful emotional drive motivates you to consummate your visions and desires. It may be expressed through dreams, adventures or breakthroughs at the work place. Creative thinking, intimacy and nurturing are also avenues through which you may express yourself.

       This much raw, primal energy can feel as though it has a life of it's own. It does! Use your power instead of stifling it. Be original. It only takes one person to activate change. You might not fit society's pictures, but not to worry. Yours is the master number of inspiration.

       CAREER: Educator, writer, performing artist, religious or spiritual leader, composer, philosopher, counselor.

         CHALLENGES: You may doubt yourself or feel insecure because you are an original thinker. You are delightfully different. When feelings out of balance, ask ' Am I following my dreams and visions ?' Don't worry about how others may perceive you; you are ahead of the pack...they'll catch up!

       Now most of all...Beauty, nature and spiritual ideals are very important to you. Remember to ride the wave of creativity and lust for life as far as possible. Others surely will be inspired by your example.

        I'm not sure how many of you believe in this sort of thing, but for me most of it seems to be Spot on, if not for me than my wonderful and talented Granddaughter, Marley Love, whose birthday is January Eleventh! 
        The number itself has many truths behind it, as we all can testify with certain dates. I have many going through my head, but for now, I'm not sure where this card came from, but I do profess that it being in my hands now, only amplifies all that it has said.

      Now I'll give you what it says on the back about all in general:
      
      What's right about you? Yes, there are many wonderful qualities about you and every person you know. By focusing on the positive and using it as a lifeline to pull us to a place of greater contentment in ourselves, we take steps to create a world full of harmony and well-being. Sometimes we must work top develop them. Our challenges can point the way to discovering our gifts hidden beneath the surface. The effort we put into learning new ways will be bountifully rewarded.

      When forced with life's challenges, we all have times we need a lifeline to hang on to what's right about us. These cards have been created using numerology and other archetypal systems with the intention of highlighting our strengths. But valuing who we are, we can open more fully to the wonders of those around us, and all of life.

      If any of you would like to contact this card company....it's:

                        HEALING ARTS
                        P.O. box 510
                        San Geronimo, Cal.  94963
                        Phone: 415 488-4738
    

  
      

.....a celebration of the 'Elevens'....

            At this time in May, always brings back memories of places, people, and things, that come swarming back to me from the past 'lives' that I have encountered in my life. This comes about, since tomorrow is not being just my birthday, and that it is Mothers Day...but for this particular one has many other entities, most of which relate to one and other at different times of my life.

       I was born on Mother's Day, May 11th 1949. They said it could not have happened at a better time, that being Lunch time. I also would be the last child born from my mother, who at the time was forty, and was un-heard of to have babies so late in life. She already had five daughters ahead of me, but without giving up hope to finally having a boy!
        My Aunt Connie was also born on the 11th, and was the youngest girl, only to have my father be younger, also the youngest in his family. I've written some excerpts that my Aunt had wrote in her later years, and those having to do with my Dad that she would always be playing pranks on in the good nature way since they always played together, and well I guess she could get away with it.....and that I know for being in the same position.

       As I grew older I had the chance to meet some very interesting people. Now being at this point of growing into those.. how do you say, 'Golden Years'....lack of better ways of putting it, I've had the unusual timing to meet these people, and to live a frantic but fun life, within my own family, and that of others.
      The first to come to mind, mostly since he not only just left us, but had a most extraordinary life of his own, then passing some of that on to me. Thomas Donald Barry became a good friend and mentor in many plots and sub-plots to activities that I would have never experienced without him. One thing that stands out the most is when we were putting one of our music  festivals together, he suggested that we make a promotional video to go along with the ordinary posters and fliers that we were going to distribute. 
     Tom, who liked himself as the directer, liked to kid around saying that it was all in the name...T. D. Barry, or as he laughingly put it...'Trip Directer' Barry!
     So it began a long friendship that with it came a movie we shot at Warren Woods, with he directing myself and my two dogs at the time, Tokas and Charlie, getting very good footage so that it became the promo piece we took to all the bars in the area to announce the up and coming 'Party' at the 'Woods'. That becoming my claim to fame in a Movie. After that were stills shot in and around down town New York City. A spot on the local radio station that our friend Dimitry set up for an interview explaining what was going to take place, which ourselves weren't even sure at the time. 
    Yes I was, as Howard Stern put it, King of all media, since later I was on Television for the 'Ugliest' Bar Tender...then last but not least, was put in a book about the area in the Northwest part of Connecticut.
     Most all of which wouldn't have happened without Tom, who in his own right had done most of that in his previous life.
     
    The other friends who come to mind, with great memories, of this month, would be a friend who I've been friends with since Kindergarden, Kirk Freudenburg, who's birthday is two days after mine, and will be celebrating our SIXTY years of friendship now and in August at the 'Reunion-Memorial-Tribute' party on Sat. the 16th. Also some that this is all about...Steve Rudus, who's Birthday was last Thursday, the 8th. Then many more that I'll mention a few...Shrdlu, a good friend and fine musician, that I know would, and still may be wailing on the Harp...Micheal Allen and his brother, Larry.....Barry  Q....who is always present in my mind, John Henry, who as you may know, I'm trying to keep alive in another life's story.....my dear friend 'Ty' who will always be with me, as she was a big part of my life!
     There are so many more, and I'm sure you'll keep their memory alive, as myself and others will do as we pass along this long and winding road, may they stay in our hearts forever, and they fine Peace in their new World!

    
     

.....going the distace on that Last Train...

              Tom and I became close friends fairly quickly, with a lot of the same type of energy, which we shared quickly that Summer when I told him about the 'Party' I wanted to throw, based on some other ones that I had been to in the Litchfield area. Other friends that I met while living in Litchfield when I was still married, had been putting on spontaneous parties any where they could. One of which that stood out was the one that Robbie Roberson ....different 'Robbie'....had put together in part of a State Forest, deep in the woods. He supplied Chicken, and you brought the beer. Beer was the main choice of drink at the time and easy to transport.
       
       So began the thought process of doing one of my own, since I had gone to several, and thought it only right to be my turn. It hadn't taken me that long to come up with a place to have it. Warren Woods was the natural conclusion, having plenty of room for a few close friends to enjoy the surroundings, which not only had out buildings which included a kitchen, but some 'shelters' and a stage. It also came with a beautiful pond out back. 
       Tom and I soon found ourselves planning this 'little' gathering that I had Dubbed...'Alive in '75 - Lake Country Green'....a little something to commemorate the passing of my father that Spring of '74...April 24th. Also a subtle suggestion of ' Keeping the Lake Country Green' as part of my environment concerns that I had connections with at the Housatonic Valley Association. It did however come out that there was a underlying suggestion of a possible second meaning to that last part of the slogan. 
       We found ourselves running around getting the bumper stickers for that slogan, so that we could present some proper advertising. Also confirming the Park, the food, some entertainment, and of course the beer! Tom also planned on showing his movie which at that point we had made a full circle to when and how we met.
        The date was set for the 24th of May, a meaningful Date, and as it turned out, we did two more on the 24th. The next one was that same Summer in August, and then the last one in July of 1976. All on the 24th. 
       
      The day had finally come, as we had secured a half ton of Chicken and 40 kegs of beer, all of which was consumed by that 'small' gathering of one Thousand 'close' friends....all enjoying music from many local musicians! 
      Every thing pretty much came together thanks to many close friends that helped to make this happen, and that's what it seemed to reveal, that it was indeed a 'Happening' that was never duplicated, as much as we had tried to do with the other two: 'Independence '76, Remember America',in honor at that time was celebrating the 200th year of our country. The 'last' one, 'Warren Woods...Dirt Roads are Down to Earth', another subtle hint of trying to keep the past Alive. Although it did have the same turn-out as the first, it was overshadowed by having the whole Troop L from the Lichfield police swam in at the end. That didn't set well with the 'powers to be' at the Town of Warren, and when it came around to applying for another go at it that next year, they had come to the conclusion that they didn't want those 'Types' coming into their town park.
 
      Every year after, I was asked if I would do another..as some called it...a 'Mini Woodstock', I just could not get back that same feeling I had when Tom and I along with so many close friends, had done what was done then.

    Now as we approach the 40th Anniversary  of the first Warren Woods, I find myself held in the balance of two entities. One being just the fact of doing a party....not as big of course..and the other having so many of those good, dear friends gone from ours lives, but never forgotten. Well thanks to many friends that have started a new era of remembrance, that we are now having every year in August, I do hope to have at least another next year for all the occasions....!
     
.......................Looking forward to seeing you there.....

             

....Taking the Last Train to Pittsfield...a Tribute

       Going back to the Summer of 1974, I was involved with the group, Housatonic Valley Association . An organization committed to preserving the Housatonic Valley, in which the River of the same name flowed and that I had grown up on. That Summer they sponsored an event at the Mohawk Ski Area, where they had guest like the then Senator Ribacoff of Connecticut. Also the Paul Winter group, noted for their music of natural sounding creatures, like Whales and Dolphins. Inside there were people set up in their different categories of Environment concerns. Down stairs was set up for a movie that was to premiere that day. That movie was called 'The Last Train to Pittsfield', and was going to be shown by the man who made it. As the time for the screening was about to happen I wandered down stairs to get a good spot. There behind the Projector, was a tall, shaggy haired fellow with an 'Air' of confidence, along with intelligence. 
    I soon settled in for the show, and what a show it was! I was amazed at the beauty it had shown for the Valley that I had grown up in, along with the facts that went along with what the movie was truly about....saving a small portion of our environment.
     I now own two copies of that same film, since I soon befriended  that same man that made this wonderful film, and soon to find out what made up that 'confidence and intelligence' in the man that became a good friend, mentor and partner in an event that would show us both a new way to experience life, and go trough the next 40 years looking at things in so many different ways.

     The next time I saw Tom Barry, he was at the Pub enjoying what I later learned was a favorite pass-time of his, drinking beer. I approached him in caution thinking that this New York 'type' would not put of with any out side disruption. I was immediately proven wrong, when I introduced myself as one who had seen his film. 
    That and a few more beers, it was obvious that he was just like us 'hicks' here in Northwest Connecticut. As it turned out he owned a house in Warren, and an apartment in New York, that was rent controlled. I can't recall how soon after that this evolved into a solid friendship that would in-dour over many years, and experience a life time of memories that shall not be soon forgotten. And now I would like to share some of these as a rememberence to one of the finest, funniest, free-spirited man that I shall ever have met.

    .......I will continue this, after gathering taking some time to gather my thoughts ..........
 

.....Some Travels in the New England Spring Time....

         Today of all days that is reminding me of Spring time in New England, and my home in Connecticut. Even here next to my open window, here in my new home of Florida, I can feel that fresh air that you only feel this time of year, no matter where you live.
     With that, I'm also feeling what I used to do back home, in Warren, around the Lake. I would get my boy or boys...who ever was around, at the time....Otis, Buddy, or Tokas, and jump in the vehicle of choice. I did have a few to chose from, but the two that stand out would be the '72 Mustang convertible, or the '72 Toyota Land Crusier. 
    I owned them at different times in my life...first the Land Crusier, which is the one that I thought of when thinking of how this day reminded me of when I would go off for a ride beginning as an errand, then ending up as a ride through the unknown. A lot of the times I would be coming home, then seeing a 'Dead End' sign at the beginning of some old 'Wood' Road, the Crusier would go into auto-drive, and just seemed to steer right for that sign.
    At that point I had no choice but to follow it to wherever it would take me. Most times I'd luck out and get through to the other end, with the worst ending up in the back yard of some Farm that long ago was the road they took to town. I'd just wave with some innocent smile on my face, as I drove by the farmer and his family, working in the garden.

      That road was close to a location that I ended up in at another time....I wrote this in November, 7th 1973.....

     A short run into the woods off Norfolk Road, Litchfield, I drove as far as I could when I had to stop, and couldn't drive any farther. I decided to continue by foot, as I did many times to 'scout' ahead, and also gave the dogs a chance to run. The 'Road' ahead was not as thick as some, but walking was the quickest, and less time consuming. It brought me to a field...of sorts....where passing through this I noticed a 'Land-marker' that resembled an antenna, which could be moved in a circle. The base itself was a metal           plaque 'rooted' by a square metal post. The plaque read :
                
                  This is our life exempt from public Haunts,
                  finds tongues in trees, books in running brooks,
                  Sermons in stones, and good in everything.....

     There was also a stone fireplace, with a grill, that was well built and beyond this was a brook about fifty feet away. Then beyond that were farmers fields, and then route 63, that goes in and out of Litchfield.

      It was a few years until I pasted that way again, long enough so that when I saw that area, it had been sub-divided with new homes.

      I've had many a good times with that Land Crusier, as many  will attest, and now siting here under a beautiful April sky, they all come rushing back to me. I will at some point get more stories of my 'Adventures' with that old beast, but until then I do wish you all a very happy and joyful spring, which I know this year all of you in my home of New England, most well desire......
  
 
                   

...another Seasonal Tidbit..........

             Something more from the archives, & it seemed appropriate..

                         I feel very much alone,
                         I take only  that which
                         serves me the best in
                         the light of tomorrow...

                         Ah, yesterday, I only catch
                         a glimpse that reflex a lifetime 
                         for which to build a future,
                         in time that has gone.

                          Present day prospects
                          are ensued  by confusion...
                          Where do I take tomorrow
                          from yesterdays Dreams...

             ....this may have already have been posted here, 
                            ...the first time written was :
                                    August 18th 1979
                            and was dedicated to our friend Sharon...


        ....Now for something in a more timely fashion......

                     As this season brings on it's charm and warmth,
               it can only be duplicated by what is yours....
               
               May your new home reflex these Qualities,
               and the rest of your being go forward with no doubt.

               Return of the messenger, we all prevail to these Flights,
               so that we may return safely to our Homes....

        This next one was written after discovering a 'Higher Self'
  
            Entering a dark Pine Forest, where the trunks of the 
        Pine Trees were large and black....then touching the branches
        that flowed with needles that made a bed for a path that led
        me to an opening to where a Buck stood, gazing at me with
        his big brown eyes and large rack of Antlers.
            He turned and I followed him to the Falls where my 
       'Greater Self '  was standing in the mist of the Falls. Hooded in
        a grey and white Robe, cleansing me up and down in an Aura 
       of white light. 
             He still seemed unclear of my questions,and did not 
       respond. He then turned and beacon me to follow  him down 
       the path to an open field, where I felt that some questions
       would take more time to be answered.....

        At this point in my life I still don't have the answers, just as
      it may take more than a life time to find them.... 
       
                      
                        
                                 

.....The Revelations of Spring......

       
       This week would start as most do, except for the fact that Monday was St. Patrick's Day....IIIIIIIIIEEEE...there's a touch of Irish in every one..! So with that said, I began the day with a Dinner...Lunch...at my complex. After a slight respite, I then proceeded to my one bar that is most comfortable. They were head-long in the days festivities, with Irish music and food for the fancy....Cornbeef and Cabbage, with Potatoes. The best had yet to come. In due time a live band took the stage. It had been awhile since I heard such music...live, that is..!  It was the high-light of the day, also the ending of it, leaving not until they were done.
      The next day was not as pleasant. My Sciatica  had kicked in at full force, and I shall not explain the depth of pain you have to endure with this condition...just believe I wouldn't wish this on anyone..even a Republican..!
      By the next day it had subsided where I could almost feel normal again. So I then took it upon myself to do a few things around the apartment. The next morning I put together a load of Laundry, which consisted of my 'throw' rugs, and misc. items to be washed. Then realizing that I need to wash the floors before putting them back. I had already done a normal wash a morning or so earlier, and had vacuumed. After finishing these feats of wonder...I always 'Wonder' when and how I'd ever get these things done...I then stopped long enough to think to myself that it was now the first day of Spring..! Was it some sort of Spell cast upon me to do all this in a fashion that it would fulfill  the ever so present 'Spring Cleaning'...?!! I will never know the true motivation behind it, I'm just glad it's behind, me!
      
        The following day I did my normal routine with my coffee, paper, and the internet. I have now found that I can choose some really good music of my chose, while cruising the Face Book page.
It also has allowed me to pick some classics, not just singles any more, but because behind that dark and deep screen, where the Face Book  Gnome's do their magic, they know now what type of music I prefer and that I like to sit and listen to a full album, while having my morning delights. 
      The one that popped-up at that time of need, was Journey..yes the '80's band that not many of you would admit to listening to. But there it was, ripe for the choosing. After a few songs, I had a chance to reflect on this band and the music that brought me back to that time.
     My thoughts glided me back to a night at the Pub...you know the one...it was after one of my Tuesday night shifts doing 'Nate Night' with our friends, Brother Jump..or was it K-Man..? Well I know it wasn't New York Chalk, since that would be a whole different story all together! 
     So there I was with two very attractive young Ladies, and a member of the band that I always enjoyed having around, and he too enjoyed being there..and why not, he had all the White Russians that he could handle, and lovely ladies that we were both fond of having in our company!
    Shrdlu was an excellent 'Wing Man'. Always there with a laugh and a Witt that matched only mine. But at some point the Radio started playing Journey, and the girls seemed to enjoy it, but not Shrdlu, he was a ...how do I say, 'Music Snob'...of course with all good intentions, and rightfully so, being a 'Purest' at heart. We managed to delight and transform these ladies to our most desired end, and marking another 'Night at the Pub'.
    
    Of course after realizing what week I was in, it soon dawned on me what this week is... a year already marking a sad end to friends we all knew and loved....they will all be missed as I'm sure all of you do feel the same way.......
      
                                         R.I.P.